第35章 爱恨为劫,宿命为囚
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严严实实地遮住了眼底翻涌盘旋、复杂难言、纷乱交织、爱恨纠缠、生死博弈的万千情绪。
那眼底,有沉寂百年的漠然、有执念将散的无奈、有宿命难违的怅然、有前路未知的茫然、有温柔滋生的无措、有濒临消散的惶恐、有百年孤寂的悲凉、有初见温柔的悸动,万般情绪层层堆叠、彼此拉扯、相互制衡、纷乱缠绕,是她百二十年幽暗岁月里,从未有过的复杂与鲜活、柔软与忐忑。
百二十年来,世间世人惧她、畏她、敬她、避她、咒她、防她、恨她、惧她,将她视作嗜血恶鬼、幽冥煞神、不祥怨灵、人间祸祟、村落灾厄,无人知晓她的委屈、无人共情她的悲凉、无人怜悯她的遭遇、无人读懂她的执念、无人理解她的坚守、无人心疼她的孤寂。漫长幽暗的百年岁月里,她立身黑暗、扎根怨煞、以恨为衣、以怨为骨、以孤为魂、以杀为刃、以执念为存续,心性冷到极致、狠到极致、硬到极致、绝到极致、刚到极致,唯有滔天恨意与复仇执念相伴左右、支撑其身、稳固其魂、存续其形,熬过无尽孤寂、抵御无尽侵蚀、抗衡无尽黑暗、坚守无尽等待。
那时的她,冷冽霸道、杀伐果断、心志坚硬、无所畏惧、无牵无挂、无欲无求,从无犹豫、从无怯懦、从无茫然、从无不确定,更从无半分凡人的惶恐与柔软、牵挂与羁绊、忐忑与不安,她是超越情绪、超越善恶、超越生死、超越爱恨、超越世俗的幽冥规则,是只为复仇而存在的执念本体、只为清算而诞生的逆天变数、只为破局而蛰伏的百年孤魂。
可此刻,在这片沉寂百年、死寂无边、幽暗无底的地底戏台,在眼前这个少年干净赤诚、温柔坚定、满心牵挂、满眼疼惜、毫无畏惧、毫无隔阂的目光里,她尘封百二十年的冰冷心绪、封闭百年的柔软情绪、禁锢百年的人性温度、压抑百年的鲜活感知,第一次彻底破封、悄然松动、尽数苏醒、缓缓蔓延、生根发芽,让她第一次拥有了执念之外的情绪、恨意之外的心思、黑暗之外的期许、孤寂之外的牵绊、冰冷之外的温柔、杀伐之外的柔软。
她轻声开口,语调平淡无波、轻柔无澜、温柔沉静,却毫无保留地拆解了自己存续百年的所有根基、剖开了自己魂魄深处最隐秘、最核心、最无解、最残酷的宿命真相,字字坦诚、句句赤裸、句句剜心、句句泣血,将自己濒临崩塌、进退两难、无路可解、无处可逃、无人可渡的绝境宿命,完完整整地铺展在幽暗虚空之中,坦然示人、默然诉说、独自承受。
“我被困在这里,一百二十年。”
“是怨气,是恨意,是无尽的不甘、无边的委屈、无解的冤屈、无尽的悲凉,死死撑着我的残魂不散、形体不灭、执念不塌、神魂不消、存续不绝。”
“这片地底囚笼、这座罪孽古村、这场无解轮回、这群麻木世人、这整套冰冷规则,硬生生锁了我的肉身、埋了我的冤屈、压了我的恨意、毁了我的人生、葬了我的鲜活、灭了我的期许,也唯独靠着这滔天不灭的恨意、执念与不甘,让我得以残魂存续、苟活百年、静待时机、不破不散、熬尽幽暗、等候破晓。”
她微微停顿,虚化飘忽的指尖轻轻蜷缩、缓缓收拢、慢慢攥起,动作极轻、极缓、极柔、极弱,带着一丝无人察觉、深藏心底、极致内敛的无助与茫然,声音依旧轻柔淡泊、温柔沉静,却藏着穿透骨髓、冻结神魂、蔓延全身、笼罩魂魄的寒凉绝望与无解悲凉。
“可我的存余,从来都是有限的。”
“怨气是燃料,是根基,是骨架,是血脉,是支撑我活下去、凝形体、守执念、待翻盘、撑岁月的唯一底气。若是怨气被彻底耗尽、执念被彻底耗空、不甘被彻底磨平、恨意被彻底消散,我无人祭奠、无体可归、无魂可依、无念可守、无路可退、无家可回,最终只会随风飘散、彻底湮灭、归于虚无、清零过往、抹去痕迹,从此世间再无环娘、再无女吊、再无这场百年沉冤、再无这段逆天过往,干干净净、彻彻底底,消失得无影无踪、无人铭记、无人知晓。”
“而除此之外,还有另一种更温柔、也更残忍、更无解、更无从抗拒、更让人无力的结局。”
说到此处,她终于缓缓抬眼。
那双沉寂万古、冰封百年、唯余恨意与漠然、冷冽无波、坚硬如铁、冷彻神魂的眼眸,此刻彻底褪去了所有凛冽、所有冰冷、所有漠然、所有杀伐、所有坚硬、所有戾气、所有霸道,完完全全变了模样、换了心神、改了底色。
百二十年的冰冷坚硬、决绝凛冽、漠然荒芜、杀伐戾气、孤绝孤傲尽数消散殆尽、彻底归零、悄然消融,取而代之的是一片从未有过的澄澈纷乱、忐忑无措、迷茫纠结、心神不宁、心绪纷乱。眼底没有恨、没有怨、没有不甘、没有复仇、没有戾气、没有算计、没有杀伐、没有冷漠,只有纯粹的茫然、极致的不确定、深沉的无措、彻底的迷茫,甚至裹挟着一丝极淡、极轻、几乎微
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