第285章 不为人知的悲痛
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你看,如今你我可以无任何障碍的交流,我还可以碰触到你的手指,你的脸颊,你的唇,你的眼,还有……”
边说着,景三的手又开始不老实起来,顺着她的袍摆悄悄探向衣内。黄晓谜瞬间浑身一僵,立时抓住他不安分的大掌,使劲拽出来丢到一边,仿佛那是一条可怕的毒蛇一般!
“我有的如今你都有,有什么好碰触的,你不觉得恶心吗?我虽不是真的男子,可我即便有了男身,还是依然无法接受女子,我无法理解这种感觉。太恶心了!”
“谜儿是想说,我很怪异,很恶心是吗?”
景三瞬间滞了不安分的大掌,短暂的沉默之后,他语气轻佻的说道:“对,我确实怪异,确实让人作呕,若我只是一个普通人,如何会对一只狗儿放心不下,又如何会对一个男子动手动脚。我是大魔头嘛,江湖传闻妖邪诡魅,不拘男女,人人得而诛之。若不是云中仙诬陷一事,至今我依然是正道讨伐的魔教教主!谜儿觉得我恶心也属常理,是我太过高估自己了,见你曾为救我而死,便自顾以为你会懂我的心意。是我太过自负了……”
听着身后景三自嘲的笑语,黄晓谜的心瞬间揪在一起!
不管你是人是鬼,即便是只狗儿,只要是你,足矣。
景三当日的话依然响在耳畔,她明明知道他只是偏执与她,为何还要说出那般伤人的话!明知景三只是因为是她,所以才会丝毫不在意她是人是狗,是男是女,为何还要引得他这般诋毁自己!
景三总是高高在上的,何曾如此自我嘲弄过!
都是她的错……她怕自己在他眼中是恶心的、怪异的存在,所以才一味的认为他也会这般想。若他真的这般想她,又怎会一次次欺身到她近前,不去看她的皮肉,只是看着她的灵魂……
“对不起,我,我绝无此意,我……我从不觉得你恶心,更不会觉得你怪异,我只是……”
“不必安慰我,我是个连自己的亲生父亲都厌弃之人,如何能奢望心仪之人心中有我。”
景三依然笑的邪魅,带着一丝轻漫与玩世不恭。
“当年我的亲生父亲曾亲自动手,想将我勒死,若不是师傅拼死相救,我早已死去。你可知父亲为何对年仅八岁的我如此凶残吗?他人都以为是因着我胸口的血痣,可是我却最是清楚,血痣确实是个因由,可除此之外,还有一个不为人知的理由。那理由不仅荒谬,而且污秽,是只能埋在地狱最底层的肮脏罪恶。”
说到此处,景三松开抱着她的手臂,任那双长臂随意的垂在一旁,“你想知道吗?”
“我,我……”其实她一点也不想知道,她不想听他悲惨的过去,那只会让她对他更加不忍,更加心疼,更加……放心不下。
可是,景三的心门很紧,即便与他相识四世,他也鲜少提起他的过往,若此时她拒绝去听,那他此后会将那痛苦藏的更深,或许会永远埋在心底,成为一辈子都不能碰触的伤痕。
她知道她应该拒绝,她不该去听,可她终还是忍不住轻声说道:“我……想知道。”
“你不怕恶心吗?不怕污了你的耳朵吗?”景三的声音竟带着一丝胆怯,想说,却又怕被厌弃,他害怕提起那不堪回首的过往。
“我什么都不怕,我想听,告诉我好吗?”她抓起他垂在床边的大掌,鼓励似的攥紧。
景三微怔,沉默的望着那交叠的双手,许久之后才缓缓说道:“我的母亲十分貌美,父亲初时是将本有婚约的母亲强娶进门的。可父亲并未珍惜她,他如普通男子一般,红颜未改恩先断,只爱新人恶旧人。母亲被他丢在那小小的院落,日复一日,年复一年的期盼他的出现,可是父亲终是没能出现。直到她死的那一日,父亲终于在八年之后,第一次踏足那个小院。
母亲的尸首还在厅堂摆着,可父亲却只注意到了年幼的我,那时的我无人问津,也无人帮我找来守孝的衣袍,我就如旁人家的孩子,默默的站在门外,看着人来人往的准备丧事。
若当时有一人想到了我,有一人帮我准备孝衣,或许一切都会不同。
可是没有……
父亲看到披头散发、无人照拂的我站在那里,竟……竟以为我是下人的孩子,而且……是女孩……”
说到这里,景三猛的攥紧了拳头,声音低哑的让她近乎听不清楚……
“他不顾刚刚死去的母亲,却将我带进一旁的小屋,不顾年幼的我拼命的挣扎,不顾我拼命喊着父亲,只是自顾撕扯着我的衣物,直到……直到……不着寸缕……”
景三的声音已经隐隐有些发抖,他的头埋的很深,藏在她的肩头,她不知如何安慰,只能紧紧的握着他的手,紧紧的握着。
“……他,最先看到的并非是那颗血痣,而是我其实并非女孩……他当即便恼羞成怒,将我从那桌上狠狠摔下,又踢又打,骂我是妖孽,是祸害!他
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