第37章 师父的嘱托
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信仰、主动抛弃善良,是凉薄的世道、自私的人心、残酷的规则、荒诞的宿命、冷漠的众生,逼着她不得不忘、不得不弃、不得不冷、不得不狠、不得不麻木、不得不沉沦。在日复一日的刻意孤立、层层逼近的人性算计、步步紧逼的宿命猎杀、无声无息的全员背叛之中,她眼睁睁看着自己坚守的善良换来伤害、秉持的赤诚换来背叛、恪守的正道换来毁灭、怀揣的温柔换来屠戮。当盛大热闹的春日戏台彻底沦为精准猎杀她一人的冰冷骗局、当曾经温情的师父彻底化作冷漠背叛的刽子手、当围观嬉笑的世人彻底变成沉默共谋的加害者、当安稳鲜活的人间彻底碎成万丈深渊、无解绝境,她再也不敢记得那句“替冤死鬼喊冤”的赤诚大义、再也不敢坚守那份温柔悲悯的戏道本心、再也不敢信奉所谓的人间正道、再也不敢期许所谓的岁月安稳。她终于彻底明白,在这个人心晦暗、利益至上、善恶颠倒、是非不分、全员作恶、全员沉默、全员共谋的凉薄世道里,正道是束缚人心的枷锁、悲悯是任人宰割的软肋、温柔是自取灭亡的原罪、赤诚是被人利用的弱点、善良是一无所有的坟墓。于是她只能逼着自己刻意遗忘初心、逼着自己冰封温柔、逼着自己冰冷凶狠、逼着自己杀伐凌厉、逼着自己沉沦幽暗、逼着自己摒弃所有人间温情与美好期许,亲手埋葬年少滚烫的信仰、亲手打碎纯粹无瑕的本心、亲手舍弃坚守半生的道义,以此熬过步步绝境、以此存续破碎残魂、以此抗衡凉薄世间、以此抵御无边黑暗、以此守住最后一丝不甘与执念。
“再后来想起来的时候……”
她的语声骤然一顿、微微凝滞、轻轻颤抖,原本平稳空茫的声调瞬间破碎,微弱摇曳的莹白魂光剧烈震颤、明暗不定、几近溃散,素白干净的单薄衣袂瞬间被层层叠叠、汹涌翻涌、浸透神魂的猩红残影彻底覆盖、层层浸染,那是百年前血染戏台、悬梁惨死、肉身覆灭、神魂撕裂的血色记忆,骤然复苏、瞬间反噬、汹涌席卷,狠狠碾压过她百年沉寂的魂魄,带来贯穿阴阳、穿透时光、无药可解、无人共情的神魂剧痛。周遭原本温顺沉寂、平缓流转的幽冥死气,骤然疯狂翻涌、狂暴席卷、聚煞成形、凛冽刺骨,化作无边无际、冰冷肃杀的杀伐浪潮,狠狠撞击着朽坏的戏台梁柱、斑驳的青砖石面、幽暗的地底虚空。戏台正中央那根百年红漆立柱之上,隐约浮现出一道纤细单薄、摇摇欲坠、孤苦无依、绝望死寂的少女虚影,静静悬在冰冷虚空之中,无人救赎、无人怜悯、无人回望、无人惋惜、无人忏悔,孤零零承受着全员世人的背叛、全员规则的碾压、全员人心的罪恶,静静迎接自己惨烈悲壮、荒诞悲凉、永世难忘的终极死亡。
她缓缓抬眸,原本澄澈空茫、温柔破碎的魂眸深处,彻底盛满万古寒凉、千年死寂、百年沧桑、一生绝望,眼底再无半分波澜、再无一丝温柔、再无一点期许、再无一毫暖意,只剩看透生死、看透因果、看透人心、看透宿命、看透罪恶、看透虚妄的极致空洞与冰冷。她一字一顿、轻缓清晰、冰冷破碎、字字泣血,将整章故事的终极宿命张力、核心悲剧内核、闭环因果悖论,狠狠钉进幽暗时光的最深处、钉进百年沉冤的最底层、钉进人间罪恶的最核心。
“已经在梁上了。”
短短六字,无哭无泪、无悲无泣、无怒无怨、无嘶无吼,没有撕心裂肺的控诉、没有痛彻心扉的悲鸣、没有歇斯底里的宣泄,却道尽了人间最极致的荒诞、最彻底的悲凉、最无解的宿命、最刺骨的讽刺、最沉重的绝望。那一刻的蓦然回望、初心复苏、信念重醒,从来不是温柔的岁月复盘、不是美好的初心重拾、不是圆满的自我和解,而是绝境彻底落幕、生死已然既定、悲剧彻底终章、罪孽彻底成型的终极回望,是一切都来不及、一切都挽不回、一切都碎彻底、一切都空无有的终极幻灭。当她终于在层层绝境、无尽黑暗、全员背叛、彻底孤立的死地之中,重新想起师父的谆谆嘱托、重新记起戏道的悲悯本心、重新唤醒心底沉睡的赤诚与正义、重新读懂善恶对错、明白自身使命之时,她早已彻底身陨、彻底惨死、彻底献祭、彻底沉沦,早已不再是那个伫立戏台、心怀大义、登台鸣冤、悲悯众生、替冤魂发声的纯粹少年戏子,早已沦为被世人无情献祭、被旧规残酷抹杀、被人间彻底抛弃、被众生彻底遗忘的最大、最无辜、最悲凉、最无处申冤的千古冤魂。
她半生习戏、终身奉道、执念坚守、赤诚奔赴,毕生所求不过是替世间无名冤鬼鸣不平、替世间无依苦难诉委屈、替世间不公之事讨公道、替世间沉沦孤魂寻归途,可到了人生终局、宿命尽头、百年回望,荒诞刺骨的现实狠狠告诉她:她穷尽一生坚守的道义无人践行,她倾尽所有奔赴的正义无人守护,她拼尽神魂追寻的公道无人兑现,到最后,偌大人间、朗朗乾坤、悠悠岁月,竟无一人替她喊冤、无一人替她不平、无一人替她悲悯、无一人替她赎罪。
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